Alone.

Today was the first day i saw my best friend in 4 months. And the worst part.. I couldn't talk to her. I couldn't give her a hug. The one thing I wanted to do was tell her how much I miss her and how much I would do anything to take back what happened and go back to the way things used to be. I've never felt so alone in my life. I don't think anyone I know could ever replace her, or her mother. They were my world and I threw it away. I cry myself to sleep every night. Just wishing it would end, all this misery, all this hurt. I just want it to be over already.